Becoming Enough

For me, the path starts when I was six years old:

I’m six years old in my room fuming after another miserable family dinner wanting to run away, feeling misunderstood, unloved, and unlovable.

In my six-year-old brain, I create this story that my family doesn’t love me, I’m not loveable or good enough. So, I decided that I’m going to make them proud enough of me to love. I get to work on school, athletics, and achievement.

Searching for achievement in business, I have had at least six successful careers.

“I believe you can make over US$100k in less than a year.” sitting in a hotel room, he laid out a plan and showed me where to start. I was so inspired that someone actually believed in me that I immediately started down this path.

I’m hustling this plan, super focused on executing like a maniac, and quickly became the top salesperson in the country for three years running.

After winning the President’s Award for sales, we celebrated that night, too many Red Bull Vodkas to count... my heart was pounding, not a chance for sleep. All I could think was if this was my last breath, was it enough?

Somehow I decided that management was the answer, onto management fast-track programs, working my way to 175 employees and a territory bigger than Western Europe with a population almost half of the United States and a GDP bigger than Indonesia, behind Mexico. Meanwhile, my kids are growing up quickly while I’m traveling and entertaining for business 3-4 nights per week.

I have been on a path searching for love and approval externally of creation and reinvention through struggle, chaos, and upheavals.

Forged through life’s crucible, I’ve lived about 5 lifetimes in this journey and have dedicated myself to helping people navigate their own paths.